Love You Dad

You held me up when I was weak.

You hugged me close when tears I'd weep.

When things got hard, you pushed me through.

You always showed me you loved me true.

I know there were times I made you cry,

and to this day,I don't know why.

For without you, where would I be?

I am thankful God gave you to me.

Thanks Dad for you are one in a million.

Some times if we gather around the words of the whole world, they are simply not enough for some relations... and some specail thoughts! Right?

How the Dreams Come True???

Sow your dream-
Let its sleepy seeds lie in rich, promising soil,
Give it patience, love
And hope-allow it considerable
Days of toil.

Watch it grow-
Look carefully for that
Tiny shoot of brilliant, vibrant, peep of
Green,
It’s made its way through
Stones & mud until it finally
Can be seen

Protect it well-
When the earth does crack,
Then water it well, when floods
Do threats then build a wall
Show it strength & nurture well,
Then watch it sprout
And shoot up tall
When aimless hailstones hurtle down
And heavy rains give no relief,
Stand your ground & ease your mind
With silent prayers & strong belief

Make it come true-
When that unassuming bud unwraps to
Face up to the sun,
Pluck it, press it to
Heart’s folds; to be now fulfilled-
The time has come.

Blooms Of Life

Butterflies… they are beautiful, tiny, delicate & with adorable designs. They are remarkable when ever your watch them in a garden or with plants or anywhere. I saw two butterflies this evening with some plants on the road side, I was walking quietly, alone & was trying to converse with my God about my life, I was stressed due to my worries & problems coming day by day in my Life. When the two white butterflies crossed my way, I noticed them but with their random cute movements in the air, I heard their small giggling like small & cute children running after one another with carefree joy & happiness on their faces & in their hearts. They were really very happy and while I was watching them I forgot all of my worries for that instance. I was watching them with a little smile on my face & God was watching me with a little smile on His face because he provided me a reason, a small but a very special reason to smile and wanted me to look at the world in a very beautiful manner. He told me that until He is there, everything will be fine just like that. I read about the relationship of you & your soul and was practicing from a long time that how to make it work, and you know what? I found a little bit of my soul in those Butterflies and under stood the meaning of me, my soul & my dear God.

Now whenever I see butterflies any where I do listen to the lovely music of their giggles & it always bring a smile to my face for moment & gives me tones of relaxation.

Why???

What am I right now? What do I feel? How do I look like in my own mirrors of life? Do I deserve what ever I am getting? Am I underestimating my self or over estimating? Why my soul is getting slaughtered day by day and I always find my self collecting the peaces? Why there is no one beside me right now? Why I stand alone in this miserable condition? Why fear makes a man weak? Am I getting weak? Why I don’t want to be weak? Am I fighting not to be weak or am I letting my self to get spoiled? Why some times I am crushing my self and my feelings? Why I sort of took pity on my self? That’s not good rite? What is happening to me? Why I feel angry and want to cry out loud as much as I can? Am I trying so hard or I even stopped trying? Am I tired? Do I need a break or a break through? Why when I write all this there are tears in my eyes? Have I changed the real me or it’s been changed by some one else? Why can’t I breathe easily and can’t smell freedom in it? Why did I get caught in the web? Why can’t people understand me at this stage? Why can’t my nearer ones understand? What is happening to me? Am I wrong and every one out there is right? Do I not understand them or they do not understand me? Why am I loosing hope? Am I not accepting what ever is coming to me? Why joy is getting finished in my life? Why I do not laugh like I did before? Why these strange clouds are not causing the rain and then let the sun to glow? Why the winter is not letting the snow to melt and cause the streams to flow? Why these darkest parts of the night are so long and letting the lights to spread on the sky wide and clear? Why do stars get more prominent in the darkest nights? Why can’t our loved ones understand the love we have for them? When we want every thing to be perfect for them why does every thing get messed up? Why can’t people understand the unconditional love? Why am I so sad about all this? Why am I taking all this on my nerves? Am I crazy? Don’t I know the realities of this cruel world? Why our soul mates become our soul breakers? Am I too demanding or asking for any thing which does not exist? Am I selfish or selfless? Why my self confidence is missing at this stage? Why no one is letting me to be me? Why I am missing at this stage?

When Does It Really Hurt???

Today’s man is like an extinguished coal, you touch it carelessly and you get closer and closer to it with out hesitation because you know that it is not dangerous to be closer to it ,it will not hurt. But you know what? We all say that we should always be at a distance with an extinguished coal because you never know that there must be a burning peace in side it, in the core of the coal. Besides this saying we do not believe in it and that’s the reason that we get closer to it.
Well let’s take it in a different manner, we consider that burning core as the soul of the man and it’s very attractive that with in that use less coal there is still a life exists. And that is the reason that we get closer and closer carelessly. Because it is a fasct that life attracts life. And that is what attracts us. During this journey of getting closer to the core we have a very optimistic view of being closer and get together, we even make fantasies and all. But when we get to the core initially it is warm and its warmth is kind of soothing and has very good effect on us, we get inspired and feel happy for it that we sort of found some one really alive at last.
And that’s where we become more careless; we just put a lid on the negativities of the hot core to which we are getting closer. Closed eyes, feeling our self to be the happiest person on earth, lots of love and affection and then there is a first small blast… you feel a bit unstable but you recover very soon because it was only a minor blast… you still keep your eyes closed and feel that nothings will go wrong, every thing is fine and it will be and must be. But sadly from there on we are totally wrong, we simply betray our selves from there, the second blast and then the third and so on, some times a cold war gets started or some times there is a big attack with out any ultimatum. The difference is that in cold war you get your self to the heat slowly and get hurt and in a direct attack you get your self destroyed in no time having nothing in the end but a mental y and physically tortured person with no where to go no where to turn …you keep on shouting inside you, crying and praying and asking your self that “what was my fault that I got this in that closeness and affection?” there are no answers of that question but echo of your own voice. Gradually that burned skin of yours gets toughen up and the soft corners of your heart that were once alive and considered, they are buried inside that hard &burned courting. You are a bit suborned for this sort of situation in life.
With the passage of time you make self to this kind of life what is left around you, but when ever you are sitting alone and recalling the memories of your life, those miserable parts are revised again in your mind and you get your self hurt again for no reason. Some times with these sort of experiences people get tougher and tougher but some are still so miserable that when ever they think of there past ,it makes them to cry and shed tears even more then before . The burning wounds get fresh even more and so they hurt even more and that’s When It Really Hurts.

Land, Sea & Air...

If sorrows were not born

The value of joy would cease,

For every ravaged nation torn,

Burns harder the will for peace.

Do sparkle diamond flecks

In blackest nights so deep

As the sun does humbly bow

So creatures great and small may sleep.

While dawn and dusk do pay

To their tunes of hide and seek

Eroding landscapes groan

As once mighty shapes turn weak.

And one soul will breathe his last

So another screams for air

While placed in his mother's arms

Who'll vow eternal care.

For Land, Sea and Air

Are being borrowed - Nothing's new,

To share essentials all

Is what we came to do.

And while death's angel stalks

Every minute, every day,

Our deeds are written firm,

In all we do; in all we say.

I Am a Live!

Some times… the ones about you care the most; not any other but your dearest and beloved friends, your trusted ones, you once had faith in them… in every situation good or bad you were always there for them… no matter they are at the right or wrong path you gave them courage to run along…you gave them the sense of independence… you stood beside them when they needed a push… they were your pride and you were proud of it… they were the sense of accomplishment that pushed you forward to accomplish… you gave them comfort when they were in a misery… they were so close to your heart that you felt their pain before even they could say any thing… they were the vastness of your world as you drifted among the clouds experiencing freedom, as you broke the chains that bolt you towards the ground…they were your pure power… you forgot each and every pain or stress when you were with them… they meant to be forever… you did what the best you could do ever for them…you didn’t asked for any thing because they were every thing for you… but they did give you some thing in return… yes they did… some thing that you never thought of and definitely wasn’t prepared for it
…they left you with a sore in your heart of grief, sorrow and loneliness… you gave them light and they gave you darkness all around you…
and now they don’t even bother to know that how you feel or how miserable you are… they forgot you like you never existed… the years of your life, the energy, time, wealth and tears that you wasted on them are in complete vain… you feel horrible like a child who is lost in a circus and is departed from his parents, he is crying out loud but no one is listening, he runs here and there with wondering eye which are full of tears and fears… and these are what you called friends; the soul mates…
But you know what? You still have got some thing that they didn’t ever have & it is so strong that it is making you to live…to live again…it is the hope…
Once I heard that “hope is the anchor of soul”
It is the passion by which all hearts are explored
In the deserted tear filled ways of lives
Only the hope makes the one to strive
Going through the sharp strings of cruel fortune

Essence of hope inspires us as sympathetic guardian
Ever when gloomy darkness eclipses pessimism in my mind,
It reminds,” If the winter comes, can spring be far behind?

When frequently attacking grief leaves one insane,
Salve of hope gives relief to that pain.

…I heard once that the things you loose have always a way of coming back to you but in a different and better way… and I have seen it my self… I didn’t know it before that you loose a treasure to have more treasure… Having that hope and that Unique Treasure…I feel my self that I am still alive!

Love...Beyond Conditions

It’s not a story about the only love that we think when ever we hear the word love; it’s about any person u love. It can be your parents, partner, friends any one in the world. There was a time in my life when I was afraid of loving some one. Because at that time I saw people who loved each other, got hurt...
I realized then that I have senses to feel...whenever times come, I would give up my all what ever I could, love so deeply and whole heartedly. It would be a truly emotional and exotic experience. Life would be beautiful even more than it could ever be thought of. I would be dreaming about the object of my affection day n every night, imagining the ideal times together, thinking of what I can do for the persn to show that how much I care...I would feel light, enthusiastic and thrilled, blooming with the lively joy I feel inside.
THEN SOMEHOW, SOMETHING WOULD GO WRONG AND MY WHOLE WORLD OF SMALL DREAMS CRASH.
Love…..Disappointments...PAIN...Anger…Fear…and at the end….Hatred….Why...why that happened?
Can't we love without pain? Is it really price to pay for all the happiness we feel when we love some one?
Now at this point I realized that we could love without getting hurt n it is the turn in my life which bring me back to have new days to live up with shining bright mornings n sound nights to end up my day with..........
It is possible when I understand what UNCONDITIONAL love is all about...
Love is one of the most powerful forces in universe. It is the fire that burns up ur inside, the essence of being something…. having something...It is a precious gift due to which we were born and alive that defines our purpose in life...The problem is that we do not understand it true meaning….If we just keep in mind that we can indeed preserve its true meaning, we can love to the fullest and be truly happy. Accept the fact that other people express their love differently.
How do you express your love? You say, 'I LOVE U THREE TIMES A DAY’...You try to make the person happy as much as you can...and do whatever the person likes a lot...
How does that person express’s his/her love? He/she rarely says "I LOVE YOU...He/she doesn’t express what he/she feels...the person forgets your birthday and does not know what to give you as a gift...
But u never know..............in doing nothing for you.... probably he/she is doing some thing for you that is out of your imagination...He/she probably loves you more than you can imagine ever...he/she just shows it differently...If you accept that you'll get the most beautiful perspective of your relationship...
Derive happiness from giving love. When you love, don’t care what others feel...just do it. And cherish the satisfaction in having given someone something of yourself.
It’s just like giving a gift whether it is appreciated or not, finding joy in simply giving. LOVE WITHOUT EXPECTING ANYTHING IN RETURN...........
From where this pain comes?
PAIN COMES IN WHEN YOU DEMAND SOMETHING IN RETURN FOR THE
LOVE YOU GIVE...........Love cannot always be reciprocal.... Love between the two can never be of the same intensity at the same time and place. No matter how much your loved one loves you, he/she will never fill all your needs all the time. And you will be waiting in misery forever, if you believe you should love only when you are sure to receive equal love in return.
Love now. The past is gone and the future is just a dream. All of yesterday's aches and pains, as well as the loves and laughter’s, are mere memories. Let them go. Fantasies and worries are for a future that may never come. Do not dwell on them. Just don’t bother about what you'll get tomorrow. Live now. Give love now. Do it and enjoy it now. Stop thinking whether you'll get the person or not.....Throw away those destructive thoughts. You always have to be in control, that you always have to be right and to do right. Loving relationships are flexible. Dynamic and evolving. Leave room now for a change interaction. Allow for new behavior and learning experiences. When we welcome these in our lives, we open ourselves to sharing more love and affection and less frustration and pain. Yes, you will say unconditional love is easier said than done. Especially when we have always believed that love is give and take. But believe that love is simply giving. And you will be surprised that a lot of it, even more, actually comes back to you. .
Love others without expecting to live with that person forever but with an eternal feeling that this comes or happened in your life because u r blessed with this gift...Relations are never seasonal and reasonable...Love is beautiful and all its seasons are beautiful charming life with its elegant and spell bounding essence.... always keep faith strong that love is boundless and limitless.... experience the unconditional love because sometimes conditions broke hearts into uncountable pieces making life a living hell...Life is beautiful only because it has something called LOVE...to love and to be loved by someone is the greatest conviction in life..........LOVE IS GREAT, WHAT IF IT BRINGS A LITTLE PAIN...BUT NOT ALWAYS...SOMETIMES PAINS SHEDDS AWAY VERY EASILY WHEN LIFE HAS A MEANING JUST TO GIVE AND NO REGRETS ON GETTING NOTHING...
Start experiencing the most beautiful feeling felt ever with out putting it into bounds of conditions...if you have it in your life.... enjoy it and see its beauty.
And one day when you will be looking back at the pages of your life...There will be no regrets and pain there.
THIS IS WHAT I CALL REAL AND EVERLASTIND LOVE...

Climb The Highest Mountain

For every mountain big or small
Every building short or tall
Any fence or highest wall,
Those who climb will sometimes fall.

Its bouncing back that’s hard to do
To smile again when feeling blue,
But to ourselves we must be true
To find the strength we never knew.

Don’t ever think it can’t be done’
In fact these facts apply to none,
Keep up the fight you haven’t won
Acquire the powers of the rising sun.

Appreciate the things you do
Don’t name your talent as just a few
Look beyond what’s hard for you
Keep your triumph in your view.

Relationships will come and go,
Like little seeds they start to grow
Amid this all be sure to Know
Who is a friend and a foe.

Although we struggle most the while
Its little things that make you smile
You may run a yard or walk a mile
Its getting there that’s worth while.

Along this stumbling, rambling race
With all the obstacles we face
Your loved ones need a special place,
Give them in your heart the biggest space.

And when life’s voyage draws to its end
We look back at time that we spend
There should be no broken hearts to mend
As we have been our own best friend.

From One of My Favorite Poets